Why.....

Life sometimes throws things at you and you have to roll with it but then sometimes you just gotta wonder WHY!
In my back to posting up-date I didn't want to mention to many of the rotten things that have happened because I know many of you are sick of my constant "one problem after another posts" but I just have to share with you one of the issues.
My son and his girlfriend have a dog that is living at our house, he went to the humane society to be neutered, I went with my son to pick him up. One week later I had parvo at my house! Now parvo is bad enough for a family with one dog but for a dog breeder like myself it is a catastrophe! With in roughly three days the brown curly beautiful female puppy we had was dead, her sister the white sweet love muffin was sick as a dog. Night and day almost every hour I was giving that puppy medication, to be honest I did not hold out much hope she was in terrible shape. I had to also worry about my many other dogs not catching it so I had to bleach everything, even my daughter's carpet. Then as if a miracle happened the puppy took a turn for the best and started to eat a little on her own, to say I was relived would be an undersatement. I had to keep her away from the rest of the group and any time I feed her ect. I had to bleach my hands, shoes ect. she would give those pleading eyes at me just begging for hugs and kisses but we had to keep all that to a minimum.
Let's jump a head to today, the puppy which I named Bella after the twilight character had been introduced to the other dogs awhile ago and the sweet thing was fitting in well with everyone. As you know Kelly & I don't get to go out very often but today the Dollar Tree opened up down on our town and we went to check it out.... When we got home I came into the house and there laying on the floor was the puppy! I raced and grabbed her she was still breathing but was in shock and not responsive. I quickly looked her over and to my horror she had been bitten by one of my other dogs, there must have been a tangle over food or something and the puppy must have been in the wrong place at the wrong time. She died a short time later in my arms.... I cried all day today because this whole thing was sooooo preventable!!!!! Kelly asked me before we left "Should we put Bella away"? I said no, She was doing so well with the group and I had never in my 7 plus years of dog breeding had any issues with adding a puppy to the group so I really had no worries that anything like this would happen, but I should have known better that a puppy her age is not able to hold her own against the bigger dogs yet. I layed in the bed crying and just kept asking "Why", Why did God save this puppy from parvo to only have it's life taken in yet another absolutely horrible way! What really hurts me is that this sweet as pie little love muffin must have been sooooo terrified today and I wasn't there to protect her and to also think she had had such a rough start to life she just didn't deserve to die without getting more loving time in! Kelly and I are both so torn up about it epecially since we NEVER go out any where and here we finally do go out and had some fun and then we come home to this. I just keep asking myself "Why"!