Tuesday, July 31, 2007

"ForK" in the road.....

I have been reading over on another Homeschool site about a gal who has run up on a "fork" in the road of her life: http://fieldofweeds.blogspot.com/
It has gotten me thinking of how when you are at a younger age you swish through life and then you wake up one morning and you are 44 years old and "Now What"..... I have found myself feeling a bit nervous when those commercials come on about senior citzens and the age braket for being included is starting to get very near : (
I have always felt that at anytime in your life you have many roads you can take - Some times you go with your gut, somtimes by what others people have influenced you to take, sometimes you just feel that there is no other options and you take that road ect. I know my mom used to say to me - "If I could do it all over again, I would have done it all differently". I used to think that so sad that she felt that way but now that I am slowing down and taking a look at my life you can see areas that you jumped the gun and should have re-thought things out better and made better decissions for sure.
My son is now at that one of those raods in his life - He turned 18 years old, He will be a senior this year in public school. He has played football since he was about 9 or 10, He has now decided to quit playing football for his highschool team. This is huge for him - Many of his dreams were attached to his playing college football and then possibly playing semi pro or pro ball. His highschool football coach had said to him that with his size (6ft. 3 in. but at 185 lbs.) He just wasn't going to get the colleges looking at him..... that broke his heart! He has been a changed fellow since then, he has been so angry every day. I have tried to step back and look at it from his point of view and I can see how whn you have so wanted something for so long and then somthing happens and it changes pretty much over night youa r thrown for a loop. My husband felt he should still continue to play this year and finish it out that maybe some small school would take a look at him and he would still be able to play - But Kris felt that there is so much time and effort into playing (Especially down here in Florida) that he could not stand putting the effort in and then being placed week after week on the bench after being told "Your the starter", "Your playing both sides of the ball tonight", "We are counting on you" ect. and then playing a few downs and then being replaced for one reason or another..... I can't blame him there!
anyway, I felt that after reading the gal aboves "fork" made me see how many time in our lives we do run up against "forks" and how we deal with them.

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