I woke up in a depressed funk today... I hate it when that happens! It just ruins the day : (
I think it stems from my son getting married on May 15th., they had talked to the paster last night and I was kinda hoping he would have advised them to slow down and wait awhile, but he didn't. Besides all the emotions I feel about that, I just hate that I am soooo overweight for his wedding. I am going to be so embarrased walking down the isle. I keep asking myself if I am so embarrased why don't I do something about it, but I am a nervous eater and anything that stresses me or makes me nervous I eat over. You have always been able to tell how things are going with my life by how I look : ( This year has been one of the worst, with living on unemployment & food stamps for months with no end in sight for a job. I don't drink, do drugs, smoke or even drink coffee so I have no way of easing my stress. One time I used walking/jogging/biking as a way to get away from it all but you wouldn't want to do that where I live now - to scarry. I had hoped I had more time before they got married to shape up but I am going to try and loss some pounds in the three weeks I have. I have about 50 lbs. to loose to get into okay shape... I pray I can get moving on this weight loss for many reason!